some times with long memories.
Here I am, I said. I wanted victory and
received Victory! I needed your
jaws more than crushing defeat. Taste me.
You know how your red toes touch the sky
and I can hardly think of anything else
when I see blood in the sun, painting
clouds rusty and wretched for me. You
know I’d rather be empty than lonely,
and I need to promise you
a thousand times —I promise you with
million words in your native tongue that
that is not the reason I swallow you whole.
The sky lies too much for you to
believe it. Is that why you love it? (do you love me?)
What can I dress it with
that will make that question less earthly. I
am hungry for sea and stars and
you guiding me home. You are
still sick off the pits in my stomach that
neither of us can stop devouring. How could we?
They taste like sweet peaches
and the first morning after we met. 9:55 What time is it
10:00 Oh. I’m going to spam your inbox like a weirdo.
10:01 I hope you don’t mind.
10:01 I love the thought of
sleeping in your arms.
10:02 I’m sorry.
all I ever needed and you
were never enough.)
worse than being empty but
better than being lonely,